☆electric sugar pop☆: 🌸 Outfits & drawings 🌸

Hello! I haven't updated this blog in a while. I felt very uninspired, even when I had new Liz Lisa clothes I didn't take any nice pictures - I don't really have any nice background for them anyway. This is why I'm going to show you some photos of my outfits, new hairstyle, new clothes, and of course new drawings!

I didn't do much during first two months of holidays. But as soon as September started, there were many events happening in Wrocław which made me go outside with my friend Ari - and thanks to this, it made me fall in love with the world again. I love science, nature, art... I have this feeling that art and science are connected (at least in my eyes). Art comes from some kind of understanding - it can be understanding of the anatomy, morphology, psychology, our feelings... And science's connected to art because it's a source of imagination and new questions.

People often ask others "why do you dress this way?". To me, the answer is: it's self expression. I wonder why do I like the things I like though? Is it because of who I am or am I who I am because of the things I like? What does "like" mean? If I want to like something because I like when others like this thing, does it mean I like it? I am becoming less concentrated on the idea of being kawaii and more on the idea of being soft, loving and a part of the nature and world. I don't want to be an individual anymore. I'm doing yoga now, and it kinda makes me feel this way; for a moment, I'm focused on the way my body works without my feelings and thoughts interrupting (I'm still a beginner so I understand that it may not be the purpose of yoga. I don't know though, I didn't read any books about it). Anyway, I like this feeling of being calm and in peace. I hate when I let myself be depressed for days. I know it's not something I can really control and maybe I'm even using the word "depressed" wrong, but when I get a chance to feel alive again, I'm going to take it. I really hope that this semester I'll meet new people and try new things. I'm going to learn japanese too (I already started). And of course, I'm trying new ways of drawing, painting, I'm challenging myself a bit - in the past, I was always making the same stuff. I was scared of trying new things although I do get bored quickly. Maybe this is why I was always suffocating. And sometimes I still am but I want to create myself the way I want myself to be. Also: I can be wonderful and still make mistakes. I want to forgive myself.

Okay, let's stop this personal stuff! ^_^ Here are some photos I found on my laptop from before I cut my hair!